you have only
taking a picture
and looking at the
image and staring
in the mirror and
looking at your
you don’t get to see
the way your eyes
light up when you talk
and you can never
see how beautiful
you look when you
it’s really is kinda
sad that you never
actually have seen yourself
but I can promise you
I will be here everyday
to tell you what i see
i just finished reading the book thief.
i read most of the second half on the bus ride back from yale; everyone else was napping or quietly talking
/as i silently wept/
still had a few chapters left to go.
got back to the dorm, finally laid down to finish the book.
/PAUSING THE READING ONLY WHEN I WAS UNABLE TO READ PAST THE TEARS/
i didn’t even have a tissue man, tears and snot errywhere
/FEELINGS SHOT TO PIECES FLYING EVERYWHERE/
eyes so swollen can barely open them
oh my goodness why can a book do this
IT’S NOT TOLD IN CHRONOLOGICAL ORDER AND STILL I WAS JERKED, SURPRISED, DEVASTATED, BY EVERYTHING
EVERY SENTENCE TBH
the power of words has implicitly and explicitly been proven.
I HAVE TO STUDY FOR CS50 BUT ALL I WANT TO DO RIGHT NOW IS READ THE BOOK THIEF
WHY OH WHY DID I BUY THAT BOOK
AND THEN WHY DID I START IT WHEN I HAVE SO MUCH TO DO
I’M LIKE THREE CHAPTERS IN AND ALREADY LITERALLY SHEDDING TEARS FROM THE SADNESS AND BEAUTY AND ZUSAK’S WRITING IS SO DAMN GOOD
ALSO I BOUGHT CHRISTMAS LIGHTS AND SWEATERS AND VELVET THINGS AND ACTUAL RAMEN AND HARVARD-YALE TICKETS AND SO MUCH THINGS SO MUCH i mean yea i have like a weekly salary of $40-60-80ish but that ain’t gone sustain
the econ lecturer today, Laibson, explained how procrastination works in terms of behavioral economics and psychology.
/EVERYTHING IS SO TRUE/
I SHOP/EAT/SLEEP/DO ART/DO THINGS TO AVOID MY REAL TROUBLES
so happy and so sad at the same time kinda but lately it’s been more of the HAPPINESS
THANKSGIVING IS ALMOST HERE I MISS EVERYBODY I WANT TO SEE MA HOME AND MA HOMIES
Wait Wait…Don’t Tell Me has been SO GOOD these past two weeks. Last week they interviewed Billy Collins; this week it’s Nick Offerman; Paula Poundstone was on the show last time; just yaaayyyyy
unfortunately, i had the name “carl kasell” stuck in my head (he’s the narrator guy with a super good voice)
and so when i was writing my expos paper, there was this guy who authored one of my main sources, and he’s named “C.R. Sunstein” and i decided to write his name in the paper AND SO I STUPIDLY ASSUMED HIS FIRST NAME WAS CARL BECAUSE I REMEMBERED HIS NAME IS A FOUR-LETTER WORD
BUT THEN TODAY AFTER I TURNED IN THE PAPER I REALIZED HIS FIRST NAME IS “CASS”
LIKE WHAT KIND OF NAME IS THAT
so now i keep talking about “carl sunstein” in my paper AND IT”S NOT EVEN HIM
AAGAFUUUUGGAHAL;KFJAW;LEFAW; so embarrassing SO EMBARE
sigh back to listening to radio sigh radio too good
so i was washing out a mug with a lid. it had a film of hot chocolate remains that i had forgotten to wash off from last night. the genius me decided to boil some hot water, pour some of that water into the mug, close the lid and shake it around to quickly dissolve the hot chocolate remains from the inside of the mug.
so i did that except i poured too much boiling water and there was just so much steam and pressure that within a second of shaking the mug, the lid exploded off and the BOILING WATER EXPLODED EVERYWHERE onto the floor and nearby wall and including onto my neck and hands so now i feel brilliant af but good thing i have aloe vera and it’s really not that bad but sigh
all this to make some tea. do you see what i do to get tea.
also this week is gonna be hella hard; THE CREYS
well, my life is pretty normal right now i guess.
last friday, hehe—our ec psets were due at 3. there was this one difficult problem i didn’t figure out until 2:50, i quickly wrote everything and finished the pset at 2:57, sprinted across half the school to the ec building by 2:59, and turned that baby in. it was lols seeing so many people sprinting around in that general vicinity with only a pset in hand..
i also got to go to a speaker thing by Lester R. Brown, the guy who basically first introduced me to environmental issues. he is pretty much my hero. the lecture itself was fine, but the question and answer section WAS SO. DAMN. FRUSTRATING. the moderator WAS SO ANNOYING AGHLFKJ:LFJ. He kept stressing that he was like bffs with Lester Brown, which he probably isn’t even, but then so he “opened up the Q&A” session by asking like FIVE mediocre questions of his own, and then called on people to answer questions but i literally raised my hand from the start and i was straight front and center AND HE ONLY CALLED ON MALES. he literally just ignored me. and then i didn’t even get a chance to ask my question and he was like “let’s end this Q&A with one final question” and he got to ask another one of his stupid questions and THEN HE ASKED LIKE 4 MORE FOLLOWUP QUESTIONS and it was literally just so annoying like seriously give the audience (and the females in the audience) a chance please
but then i stayed behind and got to talk to dr. brown a lot, and he seemed genuinely interested in what i had to say. and we got a picture :D AND ALSO there were these two cool guys who also stayed behind, and afterward lester brown left, they came up to me and asked for my info and we got to talk a lot about the environment and yay <3 YAYyayawlefja
okay that is all
aaaand compsci is going okay. i haven’t been able to finish the psets these past two weeks…sigh. only two more psets to go. every week they’re like “this is one of the hardest psets.” but they say that EVERY WEEK. AND THIS WEEK IT”S ÜBER HARD T_T but our final projects are coming up and i thankfully came up with some great project ideas! :D
seminar is fun as usual \o/
expos paper is gonna turn out well this time i think, because my draft was actually good
i finally ran again this morning! the air was freezing cold and my ears started hurting a lot because of the cold…we literally ran by “puddles” of ice T_T but it was a great run with kelly (she’s so fast and keeps me going) so hopefully i can keep it up :)
currently sitting in my new favorite study spot! there’s this utterly beautiful lounge in the law school and there’s this one side of the room with a fireplace and couches and many electrical outlets and nice-looking well-dressed people and everything is just so wonderful for studying aaaghhhhh yay gonna work on paper now, peace dogs
ALSO I”M SO EXCITED FOR WINTER AND CHRISTMAS AND THANKSGIVING AND THE HOLIDAYS AND SNOW AAAAHHHHHHHHHHH ALSO I HATE THE COLD BUT AHAHAHAHAHHHHHHHHHHSOEXCITED
GUYS I HAVE TO DRAW A COMIC FOR MY SEMINAR (THE ART OF STORYTELLING WE’RE DOING GRAPHIC STORYTELLING RIGHT NOW) BUT I HAVE ZERO IDEAS ON WHAT TO DRAW PLEASE HELP
like suggest a character or time zone or situation or something?? or perhaps a classic story to retell?